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Herro intahwebs.

It's been a while, i haven't felt like conversing with you all, i'm sorry. It hasn't been the best month. Most of you who have cleverly discovered my true identity (SHOCK!) know the cause of this and know i haven't been myself for a while. But, for those of you on the webternets this fine day unaware of my current position, gather round.

Around this time last month me and my "significant other" of near three years broke up and went our own ways. It was a pretty shattering time as you may expect. There were almost two straight weeks of slowly going through all the Joss Whedon/Spiderman i have in my house every night and my grades in uni going from straight A's (cause i am that pro) to solid C's. Then there was a liiiiiitttllee bit of weight loss and a sevre lack of sleep, but that was due to the Joss Whedon as much as anything - i just couldn't turn it off!! It took me a while to turn this around slightly and attempt to move on. I make special emphasis on the ATTEMPT part here. Still hasn't taken off so much.

Now i would consider myself an emotional sort (MORE SHOCK!) and just need to take a whole mess of time to get through this. Of course, when you have particularly depressing nights - like a certain chain of events that happened last night - the timer starts again and you tend to remember how jarring the initial breakup can be. Now internets, i do not really want to discuss said evetns of last night because they are a liiiiiitttllee private and personal and this is not the best forum in which to discuss them sadly. I will state, however, that it is going to take me many more hours in isloation with super mario, many more moons of poor sleep, many more kilos lost and a certain degree of self-deprecation before i may be myself again. I take a long time to get over these kinds of things - and i want to make it clear that i don't believe everyone to be like this, some people move on faster than others and i don't blame them. Sometimes i wish that i could move on faster and that all of this didn't happen and that last night ESPECIALLY didn't make me feel this way all over again. But hey, what can you do, everything in its right place.

Maybe i'll just become asexual. Its a plan.

PS: In regards to the picture. I just happen to love it more than any other commission i've ever seen. Adrian Alphonia is definitely one of favortie artists period. I hopr you enjoy it.